I hope the year has started out fairly good for most of you. I had been dealing with a lot of problems and setbacks a couple of months back so I wasn’t able to post anything on here. To say the least I am very happy to be back on this platform.
So let me get down to it.
I have been bullied in school by other kids who weren’t performing very well in class. So when I finished school I was glad to be getting away from all that. Little did I know though that adults can bully also.
I have been called names, I have been laughed at, my oldest son has had to hear things from people that I wish he hadn’t. My life has constantly being scrutinized under a microscope wherever I go and I have to say it’s been annoying.
A couple of years back due to certain circumstances I found myself living in a rural area and by God did people give me a hard time. I was full of anger and resentment remembering everything I have been through in my life and after with my kids. So I fell out of my religious journey and sought other ways to deal with my issues.
That road was tougher still. I exposed myself to dishonest people. I was treated like I didn’t know where my own face was. I was approached by people who didn’t have my best interests at heart because I was now easy prey in their eyes. I had to put up with so much nonsense so I could fit in and at least feel validated.
A couple of months back my life suddenly changed in a big way. I said bye bye to rural existence and was given a house with a big compound in the city as an inheritance . Myself being someone who is used to things not going right, I worried a lot about food and bills and school fees etc. etc. I had forgotten how to relax and be thankful for what I have.
I am not employed at the moment and I have a toddler. I kept imagining all sorts of scenarios where my kids would have to go hungry or we would sleep without power cause I couldn’t afford to pay. You get the picture. On top of all that worrying I was dealing with gossip and jealousy and small drama in my neighborhood.
This time I wasn’t gonna allow anyone to mistreat me or drag my name through the mad I put my foot down and started putting the gossip mongers in their place. I started to see change in the way I was treated. I was taken more serious. And some people even started being polite.
Fast forward to current events, I started reading Psalms on my son’s bible and everytime I would be pulled to read a certain chapter it was spot on. It said my exact feelings and what I was wishing. Then I started to notice that the people who camped outside my house to snoop where no longer there. When I got into public transport nobody said anything negative. My money improved I was no longer worried. I was provided for along with my kids. The name calling had fizzled out. This had been a thorn on my side for years. The Lord answered my prayers swiftly just as He had promised.
Oh before I forgrt, there was a school I was interested in sending my son to, and the headmistress put such hard conditions for me that I had to postpone sending my son there. It is a good school with kids from different ethnic backgrounds. Being a biracial boy I thought he would fit right in and make friends who where more like him. Now he is a student there and he couldn’t be happier. Nowadays he tells me everyday how much he loves me (LOL).
My overall relationship with my family members has improved a great deal and I feel joyful and peaceful again.
I have been hearing sad stories about people who mistreated me when I was homeless with nowhere to go and nothing to do. The people that abandoned me in my hour of need have been calling me and some even apologizing. I don’t hold any grudges but I won’t trust again. I can only trust in God and not man right?
Anywho… I was writing this to voice my thoughts and tell someone out there that tomorrow is always another day.
Jesus has got your back. Don’t waste your emotions fighting your enemies he will do that for you.. swiftly.💕
Till next time. Stay blessed..
Here and there 